Scarred -17-

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I don't have much to say so enjoy the post, I'd love to know your comments and thought about the story so far!

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AlZainah looked at her self in the mirror, She was pale with dark circles under her eye. 


She didn't sleep last night and she didn't shed a tear.

AlZainah wore her abaya, wrapped her neck with the hijab and walked to the living room.

"Zayon mama wain ray7a?"

AlZainah: barou7 bait Sara

Mother: ma w9alaw! bachr eldifan wil 3aza!

AlZainah winced, she closed her eyes tight and took a deep breath.

AlZainah: badig 3ala ele iyebon elkarasi o-

Mother: aked ahala dagaw!

AlZainah: mama! 3adi tkhalene arou7 please?

Mother: ma kalaitay shay!!

AlZainah: akil lama arid

AlZainah walked downstairs and to her car, her mobile vibrated.

"Zayon tawna wasleen bait Sara, ahlha mratbeen kil shay"

AlZainah sighed. 

Shlon yratbon o ytzahbon 7ag munasaba chithi 

"Bewadon sayarat Faisal bait yada, 3ashan khalti ma tshofha bachr"

AlZainah's heart sunk and texted Latifa back "ana awadeeha".

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"Kahi Zayon!!"

AlZainah got out of her car and walked to the girls. 

Hessa and Latifa hugged AlZainah.

Latifa: walhaneen 3alaich

AlZainah smiled: wana akthar!!

Hessa: bnrou7 nishtre 3abaya 7ag Sara! 

AlZainah: ma 3indaha?

Hessa: imbala bas qadeema 7adha! 

AlZainah nodded: fe a7ad dakhil?

Latifa: la ahalhom mishaw! 

AlZainah nodded.

Hessa: btwaden sayarat Faisal?

AlZainah nodded: o akhale yones yl7agne ib sayarti

Hessa nodded: okay 3ayal i7na mashen!

AlZainah: derbalkom

AlZainah walked to the front door she slowly walked to Faisal's room.


 She stood in her place, stared at his door and quickly rushed down the stairs. She realised that she shouldn't do go to his room, she doesn't have the right to do that.

"Younes come outside and bring Faisal car key"

AlZainah found younes standing beside Faisal's car.

AlZainah: take my car and go to Faiha, Im going there now 

AlZainah looked at Faisal's car key, his key chain; her heart sunk, everything is starting to get a bit too real. 

She got in the car, it smelled like him, she looked around the car, tears started rolling down her cheeks.

She remembered telling him that he was so messy, AlZainah rested her head on the steering wheel and cried her eyes out. Faisal was gone and she had to wrap her head around that thought. She wanted to close her eyes tight and wake up from the nightmare she's living but she knew that its not a nightmare, and that Faisal is dead.

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AlZainah felt her eyes burn, she wiped her tears away, took off her abaya and got out of her car.


She walked to the bench in their garden, sat down and took off her slippers, AlZainah felt the wet cold grass tickling her feet and smiled. 

AlZainah let her hair down, she gets headaches when her hair is pulled up for a while, she closed her eyes and moved her feet against the cold grass.

"Guwaa"

AlZainah quickly opened her eyes, she knew exactly who's voice is that.

"Hamad"

Hamad: shlonch?

AlZainah shrugged her shoulders: madre

Hamad sat down beside her, and handed her a sultan center bag.

AlZainah: shnu hatha?

Hamad: shofay

AlZainah: ben and jerrys!! 

Hamad nodded: chocolate fudge

AlZainah smiled and nodded: ee a7iba!!

Hamad: fe gfash plastic dakhil

AlZainah smiled, Hamad still remembers that ice-cream puts her in a better mood and its basically her first supporter when she's feeling down.

Hamad: zayoon.. shlonch?

AlZainah: madre.. madre shlone! 

Hamad: ohwa-

AlZainah: kil mara yt3ab wayed intwaqa3 ina khalas bas bemout!!

Hamad sighed.

AlZainah: 7asait ine mitwaq3a ina la2ana marath fa mara7 an9idim wayed etha tiwafa bas in9idaamt o -

A tear rolled down AlZainah's cheek, she quickly wiped it away.

AlZainah: 7asa bil thanb Hamad!! ma gidart a7iba!! 6oul 3umri a7isa okhoy elkbeer ele ydeer bala 3alay o ysa3dne! 6oul 3umri agol alllah khatha Zaid ib 3umir 9gheer o 3a6ane Faisal mukanaa

Hamad sighed.

AlZainah: 7awalt ine a7iba bas magidart!!

Hamad: kalamne gabil isbou3

AlZainah: mnu?!!

Hamad: Faisal.. kalamne gabil isbou3.. wa9ane 3alaich, wa9ane adeer bale 3alaich 

AlZainah smiled while tears were forming in her eyes, everything were blurry until she blinked.

Hamad: la t7seen bil thanb, kan yadre ina mo bedich zayon

AlZainah wiped her tears off her face: bagoum ayeeb kleenex

Hamad smiled at her and offered her his sleeve. 

AlZainah giggled: 9adgne ma widik!!

AlZainah called her nanny and asked her to bring a tissue box.

Hamad: zayon

AlZainah looked at him: hala

Hamad: abe asa3dich.. abe akoun 7oulich ib hal ayam

AlZainah: Hamad-

Hamad interrupted her: khalene 3al aqal awa9lich baitkom 3gub el3aza!! khalay sayiqkom ywadech wana aridich elbait!

AlZainah: no way!!

Hamad: laish? asta2thin min omch o oboch!! 

AlZainah looked at him with a straight face.

Hamad: zayon mu ga3id a7awil akhaleech t7ibene ele abeeh ohwa ine asa3dich! may9er itimeen tabcheen 6oul el yoom! mo zain o-

AlZainah: etha omi rithat okay

Hamad smiled: okay

AlZainah grabbed a spoon: tabe?

Hamad: min mita you share ice cream?

AlZainah giggled: kan 3umri 10 sneen lama kint I dont share!

Hamad smiled and looked away and pointed in front of AlZainah.

Hamad: hne-

AlZainah: 6i7t 3alaik ana wil gare

Hamad laughed: EEE!!

AlZainah: 3al aqaal 6ai7a laha nitayij 7ilwa!!

Hamad: elscar?

AlZainah nodded.

Hamad: 3ajibitch?

AlZainah: umm la

Hamad: 3ayal shlon nitayij el 6ai7a 7ilwa?

AlZainah: iff Hamad ta7qeeq?

Hamad laughed: laaa 7asha!! ana asif!!

AlZainah smiled, she enjoyed having Hamad around her, AlZainah was falling for him which scared her, she knows for a fact that her mother won't allow her to marry him.

She closed her eyes and remembered that tomorrow is going to be a long sad day and she knew that Hamad is the only one that could make it better.

Scarred -16-

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*I don't have anything to say!


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AlZainah opened her eyes after hearing Faisal cough for a couple of times.



"ayeeblik maay?"



Faisal nodded: ee please



AlZainah handed Faisal a bottle of water.



Faisal: mita btriden?



AlZainah: el kuwait?



Faisal nodded.



AlZainah shrugged her shoulders: madre



Faisal: ma biga shay 3ala rmthan



AlZainah: isbou3 china!



Faisal: youmaain



AlZainah giggled: ee nafs elshay!!



Faisal's face turned straight and serious: riday



AlZainah: okay faisal y9er khair!



Faisal: adre ta3abtay... zayon mintay majboura tg3deen!! 9arlich taqreeban shahar hne



AlZainah: faisal khalas! ana afakir o ashof mita arid



Faisal sighed: adre omi o oboy o sara kilhom malaw.. adre sara 7adha walhana 3ala el Kuwait o rabi3ha



AlZainah sighed.



Faisal: 7alte mo ga3da tit7asan, widi arid el kuwait.. 7ag rab3i, ahale, sayarti, widi arou7 eldiwaniya



AlZainah felt like crying.



Faisal: riday zayon wetha allah katib intshawaf bil kuwait



AlZainah smiled and left the room when Faisal's father walked to the room.



She left the room and texted her father 

baba book me a ticket back home



A month passed, she was so stressed out, Faisal was really sick.. even the good days that he frequently had were getting less by time, he was getting thinner and weaker and the doctors were slowly giving up on him.


AlZainah knew that being with him will not be easy, but she didn't expect it to be that hard.

 She was sure that if she was in love with him it would be easier on her, but she wasn't, AlZainah tried to fall for Faisal but she couldn't, she always saw him as a close friend and a big brother. Nothing more than that.



AlZainah sat on the first chair she saw. She couldn't keep Hamad off her mind. 



"Btriden?"



AlZainah raised her head and saw Sara standing.



AlZainah: ee



Sara: a7san



AlZainah gave Sara half a smile.



Sara: akraah hal mukaan o hal mistashfaa! 



AlZainah sighed.



Sara: 3ami 7ajazlich?



AlZainah nodded: ee 6ayarti bachr



Sara: eldictor kalam oboy



AlZainah: ee?? shgaal?



Sara: gala ina nrid elkuwait a7san, o nkhale Faisal yshof rab3a o ahalna



AlZainah: ya3ni khalas?



Sara: madre 



AlZainah: wayed nass 6abaw



Sara: o wayed nass mataw



AlZainah gave Sara a warm hug: barou7 azahib jan6iti okay?



Sara nodded: mara7 tsalmeen 3alaih?



AlZainah nodded: imbala



AlZainah walked to Faisal's room, she felt her heart sink, what should she say? that she's leaving? that she tried so hard to be with him but it was all over her head? 


AlZainah started crying, she quickly wiped her tears away and opened the door to Faisal's room.



He smiled when he saw her "hala"



AlZainah smiled back: hala feek



Faisal: mashhya?



AlZainah nodded: shdarak?



Faisal: 3yonch



AlZainah: shfehom?



Faisal: mbayin bachyaa



AlZainah smiled: ashofik bil kuwait Faisaal!



Faisal smiled: hmmm



AlZainah: Faisal!!!



Faisal: Halaa



AlZainah: ashofik bil Kuwait enshallah!!



Faisal smiled and nodded: ashofich bil Kuwait enshallah



AlZainah smiled and left Faisal's room, she left him not knowing if she'll ever see him again, she left him with a wish that she'd see him in Kuwait.


She walked to her hotel and started packing for her trip back home.


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AlZainah walked around the airport with Abadi Johar's voice in her ears, she wasn't sure if she should send Hamad a text telling him that she's heading back home.



She sent a text to her driver

Joe be in airport 6 in the morning please



AlZainah called her parents while walking to the plane, she sat on her seat until the flight attendant asked her to switch off her phone. 



She closed her eyes and all she could hear is Faisal's voice telling her "ashofich bil kuwait enshallah"



AlZainah close eyes and hoped for the best.



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"Kahi khai w9alat!!" 



AlZainah saw her parents rush towards her.



AlZainah: halla halaa!! laish ta3abtaw 3umrkom!! chan khalaitaw joe iyene!!



Her mother gave her a hug: el7imdallah 3al salama mama



AlZainah: shfekom?



Father: mafeena shay! far7aneen ib shouftich 7abebete



AlZainah: laish ma yane joe? laish fazeen min 6 el9ib7?



Mother: haw zayona shfeech! ma y9er nolah 3alaich?



AlZainah walked to the first chair she saw, she sat down, her head was spinning, she knew something had happened, she knew that something is wrong, she could feel it in her parents faces and voices and her mother's weird hug.



Her mother sat beside her.


AlZainah felt chocked up: golole sh9ayir, golaw!! bas golaw o 3adi ib namshe lay elsayara winrid el bait o 3adi bas 3adii



AlZainah kept repeating the word "3adi", she looked at her mother, she saw tears in her eyes and she knew it, it was Faisal. Something was wrong with Faisal.


AlZainah: yubaa



Father: AlZainah, el7imdallah 3ala kil 7aal ya yuba.. o alllah -



AlZainah: YUBAA!!



Father: Faisal-



AlZainah gasped: baaas!! la tkamil!! adre!! adre!!!



Her mother wanted to hug her.



AlZainah: yalla khanrou7 el bait



AlZainah stood up and started walking to the door, she had no idea where the car was, she didn't shed a tear she was just walking, she felt her father hold her hand and walked with her to the car.



Her father opened the door for her, she got in the car and didn't say a word all the way to the house. 


She kept repeating "3adi...3adi.. 3adi" all the way back home, then she'd close her eyes so tight and whisper "ya rab ya raab" 


and still not a single tear shed. 

Scarred -15-

Hi!!


*I hope that all of you are enjoying your summer vacations and good luck for those of you who are taking summer courses!! 


*I wrote this post while "Ed sheeran- all of the stars" was on repeat, Its such a beautiful and depressing song and I felt like it affected the way the post went.


Enjoy it!!!


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AlZainah felt her heart beat in the tips of her fingers, she tried signing her stress off but nothing worked. She was so nervous. 



The first person she saw was Sara, she was standing facing a window.



"Hi"



Sara quickly turned around, tears were rolling down her cheeks once she saw AlZainah.



"7ada ta3baan zayon!! 7ada ta3baan!"




AlZainah's heart sunk, she had no idea what to say, what would make Sara feel better, They sat on the chairs in the waiting room.




Sara: shlon latofa o hesso? walhana 3alaikom




AlZainah smiled: wi7na ba3ad walhaneeen 



Sara smiled: zayon



AlZainah: hmm?




Sara: shyaybich?




AlZainah sighed: madre!! bas 7asait ine lazm aye!!



Sara sighed: tyela ayam ykon feha zain, o ysolif o yth7ak, wityeela ayam wayed yta2alam feeha o tyeela ayam kila nayim feha



AlZainah felt tears forming in her eyes.



"Zayona?"



AlZainah: hala khalti!!!




Mother: hala 7abeebtee!! el7imdallah 3al salama!! 




AlZainah smiled: alllah ysalmch!




Mother: ba3ad galbi zayona! mashkoora 3ala yayitch, saronna malat min elga3da bro7ha!!




AlZainah smiled: ma baina khalti i7na khawat!!




Mother: ta3alaw dakhil, 3amch dakhil o Faisal ga3id!



AlZainah felt her legs numb, she wasn't ready to see Faisal but she couldn't say no to his mother.




She walked behind his mother with slow steps, the door opened and she saw him. She saw Faisal, their eyes meet, AlZainah felt her heart beat faster, she felt her blood rushing through her body.



Father: halaaaa zayona!!!




AlZainah smiled: hala 3ami! shakhbarik?




Father: bkhaair el7imdalllah!




Mother: Bo Faisal shrayik nrou7 nyeeblina gahwa?




Faisal's parents left AlZainah alone with him.




"Hi"



AlZainah smiled: Hala



Faisal was nothing like himself, he was extremely thin, She felt like his veins will almost pop out of his arms, he had blue circles under his eyes, he wasn't Faisal that she always knew.



AlZainah: shlonik?



Faisal: el7imdallah, its one of the good days



AlZainah: good days?



Faisal nodded: tyene ayam a7is ine 9irt a7san o atfa2aaal o agol yallla bas shway o a6eeb o arid el kuwait!



AlZainah smiled.



Faisal: wityene ayam agol 7ag nafsi bas khalas mako fayda, lu arid el kuwait agathe ele bage min 3umri ma3a rab3i o ahale abrak




AlZainah: Faisal!!




Faisal tried to smile: ma 3alaina mini, intay shlonch?




AlZainah: bkhaair!!




Faisal: yeetay ma3a 3ami?



AlZainah: la brou7i 




Faisal: wil 9aifi?




AlZainah: mani makhtha




Faisal: zayon!!




AlZainah: Halaa?! la7gaa 3al takharuj! wil watheefa wil ga3da min 7 el 9ib7!!




Faisal: kasoolaa




AlZainah giggled: 7adi!!




Faisal: lay mita ga3da?




AlZainah: lay rmthan!




Faisal: giltlich tan6rene mo tyene!!




AlZainah giggled: ee ayeek o lay radait el kuwait an6irik!




Faisal smiled. 




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The day came to an end and AlZainah had to go back to her hotel.



Father: zayona yuba laish ma taskneen 3indina bil shiqa? tkoneen 7olna o ma3a Sarona!



AlZainah: la 3ami khalne bil hotel a7san! o 7adi mo b3eeda 3ankom tara! baina bas shari3!



Father: ele yray7ich 7abebte! 



AlZainah walked back to the hotel, she needed to walk, she needed to clear her head, seeing Faisal today made her heart heavy, he was so weak, she could barely hear him talk.


The thought of marrying him was ringing in her head again, but what about Hamad? How will she tell Faisal that she wants to be his wife? what if he says no?



AlZainah closed the door of her room, locked it and threw her self on bed, she covered her face with a pillow and cried until she fell asleep. 


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"el7imdalllah bkhaair!! ee wala 3ami ma ga9aar! masken y7atene akthar min Sara! la kani barou7 atrayag wiya Sara winrou7 el mistashfa.. salim 3ala omi.. enshallah..ma3a elsalama"



AlZainah and Sara ate their breakfast and were walking back to the hospital.



Sara: shlon Hamad?




AlZainah: Sara? sh'hal so2al?




Sara: zayon tadren inch ib 7isbat ikhti! bas etha nawya tg3deen shway o trideen 7ag Hamad min al7een agolch riday!




AlZainah: Sara shfeech?!!




Sara: Faisal wayed istanas ib shoftich, mabe yindgir, wath3a ma yisma7la ina yindgir!! kan bkhaair o 6abe3e gabil la tyeen! ya tkhaleen elwath3 a7san aw tamsheen!




AlZainah stayed silent all the way to the hospital, she knew that Sara was so stressed out and she needed someone to release that stress and anger on, but she also had a point.



The girls were walking to Faisal's room, when they saw his mother standing outside the room crying.



"Ya rabb ya raaab yaa raab"



Sara: yuma shfeech?!!



Mother: ta3baan



Sara sighed.



AlZainah: khalti ta3alay gi3day



AlZainah and Sara's mother sat down.



Mother: ta3awdna 3ala hal ayam.. awal shahar kanat 9a3ba 3alaina.. o lal7een 9a3ba 3alaina! bas 9irna a7san, gimna n3arif int9araf lama faj2a yt3ab wayed



AlZainah: el7imdallah 3ala kil 7aal



Faisal's mother smiled: el7imdalllah



AlZainah walked to Faisal's room, she opened the door slowly, she saw him bending over and he was vomiting.



She froze in her face, she had no idea what to do or say, Faisal looked at AlZainah and back to Sara.



"la tshofne chithi,, 6al3eeeha bara" 



In a blink of an eye the door was shut, AlZainah took a couple of steps to the back, she realised that the month that she'll spend around Faisal won't be an easy one, she'll have a lot of long days.


She needed to decide whither she wants to go through this or go back home and just wait for him.

Scarred -14-

Hi!!


*Some of you are asking if the end is getting close and when will the story finish! I really have no idea, I'll just write what I feel like writing and we'll wait  and see!


This post goes to my favourite graduate, SAA!! Mabrouuk!! I'm so proud of you! And I love you more than you could even imagine;***


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AlZainah walked to the stairs with slow steps, she was going through all scenarios that might happen once she tells her parents her decision. 



"Hala zayona baba!! sh9ayir?"



AlZainah gave her father a quick smile and sat down in front of him and her mother.



AlZainah: 9arli cham youm afakir bil mawthou3, o a7is ine qarart!



Mother: ay mawtho3 enshallah?



AlZainah: mawtho3 Hamad wala Faisal



Mother: qa9dich mawthou3 el mareeth wala wild el khadma?



Father: istaghfir alllah!! khaleeha tkamil!



AlZainah took a deep breath: awal ma akhalis finals barou7 Houston 7ag Faisal



Mother: wil 9aifi? wil takharouj?!



AlZainah: at2akhar course mu mishkila!



Mother: fa shqarartay bil thab6? titzawjaain wa7id feh cancer? 



AlZainah sighed: yuma-



Mother: o la shbtgoleen? Hala Faisal shakhbarik? yalla khal nitzawaj?



AlZainah: yuma!!! Faisal kan dayman ynaqiz 3alay o mkalim oboy bil mawtho3!!



Mother: gilteeha! KAAAAN!! Ya3ni min zmaan!! Ya3ni khalas el walad khatha ejabta minch!  laish trideen tgi6een 3umrich 3alaih?



AlZainah looked at her father, she wanted him to say something, to be on her side.



Father: baba zayona radaitay fita7tay elmawtho3 wiya Faisal 3gub ma dara ina mareth?



AlZainah: gali an6ira!! shma3nata?



Mother: ma3nata tinthabrain o tan6reena yrid! Mo tsheleen gashich o tsafreen!



AlZainah looked away, she knew that talking about this with her mother would be hell.



Father: om zaid, mumkin tkhaleena ana o zayona bro7na?



Mother: la mo momkin!!!! AlZainah binti el wa7eeda!! gathaina 3umrina kila ndareeeha winkhaf 3alaiha o na36eeha ele tabe!! Mo nagi9ha shay!! mara7 artha inha titzawaj mareeth!! 



Father: wala ana ra7 artha, ro7ay darich o ihdaay 3ala ma atfaham ma3aha



Mother: shofay zayon! la ra7 titzawjain mareeth wala ra7 titzawjain wild el khadama!! lu t3anseeen  o tg3deen 3indi bil bait! fahma?



AlZainah just stared at her mother while she walked to her room.



Father: zayon



AlZainah: yuba!! please ifhamne! Faisal 6oul hal sneen y7ibne! o kil ele kan ysaweh wegola la2ana y7ibne!! ana ele 6oul hal sneeen adgira o ma asawe nafsi mo fahma!!!



Father: bas hatha mo ma3nata inch titzawjaina!



AlZainah: imbala!!! etha btkoun hathe akhir ayama bakoun 7oula!! wetha la wetha allah katibla y3eesh 3adi a3eesh 3umri kila wiya!! yuba faisal wayed y7teene wayed y3amlne zain o-



Father: adre ya yuba adre




AlZainah tried so hard not to cry: will 7al?




Father: rou7ay Houston



AlZainah: okay?




Father: o trideen gabil rmthan 




AlZainah: o bas?




Father: ee bas! bidon zawaj 



AlZainah sighed. 




Father: zayon baba may9er titzwjain wa7id la2ana kasir kha6rich




AlZainah's tears were rolling down her face: adre




Father: khalas 3ayal baba bas 3a6ene tareekh 3i6litich o ana ib nafsi a7jizlich o amir 3alaich hnak mita ma gidart



AlZainah nodded.



Father: be9er elwath3 jidam kil elnass chinch ray7a 7ag Sara twanseenha bidal la yteem thayig khilgha!



AlZainah nodded, stood up to walk to her room, her father gave her a warm hug: acre inch 7anouna baba.. o t7iseen bil thanb bsr3a.. bas may9er takhtheen qarar chithi




AlZainah hugged her father back and cried: mabeh ymot.. magdar!!



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-One month later-


"Hi"



Hamad turned around: Hala



AlZainah: msafra america ba3ad shway



Hamad nodded: ya bakhta



AlZainah smiled: ma qarart



Hamad: bt'hideen kilshay o tro7eenla bas ma qarartay?



AlZainah: baro7la at6aman 3alaih o arid



Hamad: triden wintay murta?



AlZainah shook her head: la



Hamad walked closer to AlZainah: 3ayal la trou7een!! tikfain! la tro7eeen!!! kalmeeh Skype kalmeeeh tango ayshay!! bas la tro7een!



AlZainah smiled, she loved the way Hamad was attached to her, the way he looked at her, she felt that he wanted her around him more than anything and finally he was not shy to show it.



AlZainah: mara7 a6awil Hamad.. shahar.. shahrain bil kitheer



Hamad: o shyathminle inch ma t7ibeena ib hal shahrain?



AlZainah: ma gidart a7iba 6oul hal sneen mara7 a7iba al7een! in6ir o -



Hamad: Zayon elshay el wa7eed ele ni6arta 6oul hal sneen ele fatat ohwa shoftich!! agdar atim an6irich 6oul 3umri bas abe nateeja 7ag hal na6ra!! mabe an6ir o akhir shay-



Hamad looked down.



AlZainah: khalas 3ayal in6rne



Hamad: Zayon



AlZainah smiled.



Hamad: etha ma tizawajtch mara7 atzawaj ghairich



AlZainah felt butterflies in her belly.



Hamad: 7i6ay hal shay ib balich, 7i6ay ib balich ine min 3araftich wana a7ibich o akhaf 3alaich, 7i6ay ib balich ina kil youm agoum el 9ib7 o atmana inch tmrene hne! ine ashofch lu bsr3a, ine asma3 9outch! 



AlZainah smiled.



Hamad: Zayon 9ij ine kint b3eed 6oul hal sneen bas ib raditi hathe 3araft wayed ashya2 3anch! o la7atht wayed ashya2!! 




Hamad smiled:  la7atht inch lama tist7een t6al3een ta7at o t3adleen 7awajbich



AlZainah giggled, that was a weird habit of her and he noticed it.



Hamad: o t3a9been 3ala kilshay o kilman lama tkoneen yo3ana... o madre laish dayman tashkeen ina rgubtich t3awrch o ma 3indch ghamaza o lazm tsaween 7araka ghareeba ib wayhich 3ashan t6la3!




AlZainah giggled: ee!!!



Hamad: o inch sha6ra o om glaaib bas mu rathya ti3tarfaain! 



AlZainah laughed.



Hamad: o inch ma t3arfen ti6bkheen wala tsougeen gare



AlZainah laughed: Hamad!!! sh'hal ma3lomaat!!



Hamad: 9a7 wala mo 9a7?



AlZainah smiled: 9a7



Hamad: bas 3ayal mo la2ane 9arli fatra mo shayfich ma3nat'ha ine ma3arfich!!



AlZainah sighed.



Hamad: ra7 an6irich... bas please zayoon.. la trideen elkuwait wintay murta



AlZainah's heart sunk.



Hamad: wetha raditay wintay murta.. la tyene.. la tkalmene! 3eeshay 7ayatich o ana aked ib yousalne el khabar, bas mabe yousalne minch!!



AlZainah took a deep breath and nodded: ma3a elsalama



Hamad: bilsalama



She left Hamad standing with a disappointed face, he wanted her to stay, to be with him, he saw her walk away from him, walk to be with another man, without knowing if she'll ever come back to him.


She left him.. she left him scarred.

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AlZainah gave both parents a hug and walked to the gate, she was leaving home to be there for Faisal, what if she couldn't full fill her promise to Hamad and came back home as Faisal's wife, what would her mother's reaction be? What will Hamad feel?


She wanted to leave everything and everyone and just be alone, she wanted her personal space, a space that everyone around her knew that she needed sometimes. 



Hamad was the only person on her mind, his smell hit her every time she closed her eyes and tried to remember the way he smelled, his smile, the way his hair is always messy 


AlZainah dragged her heavy heart and bag all the way to the plane, sat on her chair, closed her eyes and prayed that Allah would set her mind to whats best for her.