Because your heart is my home..LAST PART.

Hello!!!

1. This is the last part of the story.

2. I didn't write what most of you wanted me to write, You'll figure out the reason at the end of the post.

3. After reading this part I'm sure that you'll have some questions to ask! I'll post an explanation and I'll answer all of your questions!

ENJOY IT!

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Faris opened his eyes…he looked around, he found himself in the living room downstairs, his mother was on the couch in front of him..

"Faris... 9aba7 elkhair 7abebe"

Maybe it was just a bad dream and he just woke up? Maybe Zaina is still alive.

Faris looked around for his mobile

Faris: yuma wain telephoney?

Mother: ga3da ash7ina lik

Faris looked around, he saw his mobile grabbed it and walked outside..

Mother: FARIS WAIN RAYI7?!!!!

He opened whatsapp, clicked on Zaina's chat

Zayoon

Out!

He looked up at her window, Just like he does every morning.. like he does every time he leaves the house, Faris was expecting to see her.. to see her beautiful face, bright smile wishing him a good morning.

Zayooon!!!!!!

Faris kept looking at her window, he knew that he won't see her face today.. not anymore.

He looked for her car in their house parking.. it wasn’t there.

Zaina was gone..the love of his life, his best friend, the rock that he always leaned on.. she was gone.

"Zainaa" Faris whispered to himself..it was too late, she won't hear him, not now.. not anymore.

Faris turned around and saw his mother standing, her eyes were filled with tears, she couldn’t stand seeing her son in that state.

"Kint na6rha itakharaj.. kint na6irha t9er murti"

Faris threw himself in his mother's arms and cried, He cried for losing Zaina, He cried for losing himself with her, He cried because she died while being disappointed of him, he cried because he can't fix anything.. he was completely helpless. 

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He looked at his white dishdasha..at his pale face, and red eyes.

Zaina was gone and he should man up and move on, that what was his brother trying to convince him to do.

"Faros tikfa la tabche bil magbara!!! Shbegolon ahalha!! Mo kilhom yadron!"

Faris said nothing, he just stared at his brother.

"Faris!!!"

"SHLON MA ABCHE? TADRE INE KIL YOUM RA7 A6LA3 MIN EL BAIT O MA ALGA SAYART'HA 9AF6A? MA RA7 ALGAHA T6IL 3ALAY? MA RA7 TDIG 3ALAY TIT7AL6AAM 3ALA AGHBA EL ASHYA2 BAS MA T9ADIG WANASTE!!  SHLON MA ABCHE O ZAINA MA RA7 TKON MAWJODA 7OOLE? MA RA7 ASHOFHA WALA ASMA3 7IS'HA? SHLON?"

Faris left Ahmed standing and walked to the car, he looked at Zaina's window for one last time, took a deep breath and got in the car.

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Faris watched them carry Zaina's body.. dead body.. She was covered in white…

He just walked behind the huge number of men..tears started forming in his eyes…He wanted all of this to be over, he wanted this to be a nightmare and he just needs to wake up from it.

They started putting her in her grave, He couldn’t feel his legs anymore he leaned on his brother and closed his eyes, Faris felt like screaming at them.. telling them to let her go..but he didn’t..he couldn’t, Zaina is dead and he had to accept that fact..

"Allah yr7amha..3atham allah ajrkom…3athamm allah ajirkom.. allah yir7amha.."

Was the most said words that day..

"Ahmed mita ib namshe?" Faris whispered in Ahmed's ears.

Faris couldn’t stand up anymore, He couldn’t breathe he just wanted to leave.

Ahmed looked at his brothers pale face: yalla al7een namshe!! Bas khansalim 3ala-

Faris: ana ban6rik bl sayara

Faris walked to the car with heavy steps…all he could think about was Zaina..her smile, her funny laugh, the way she made his day just by being in it.. .what would he do without her? How would his days be?

He felt the tears roll down his cheeks, he closed his eyes..it hurts, he covered his face with his ghetra leaned on a car and cried..He lost Zaina, His Zaina, he won't ever see her, He never imagined a day without her and he's going to have to live his whole life without her.

"FARIS!!! GOOOM!! 9al 3al nibi allah yhadeek!!!"

His brother helped him stand and they walked to the car together.

They got in the car, Ahmed directed the ac to Faris, Faris took off his ghetra, He opened their Whatsapp chat and read the last sentence that she told him..

"someday you'll need me and you won't find me."

He felt choked up, Faris couldn’t breathe, he unbuttoned the upper buttons of his dishdasha and took a deep breath.

Faris went through their pictures, his favorite was a picture that was divide into two parts, them when they were kids and when they grew up, they were wearing the same colors, Faris eyes were crossed and Zaina was laughing at him.. in both pictures.. Faris smiled..

But the smile faded when he realized that she was gone.. He won't act silly around her.. and he won't hear her laugh anymore.

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They reached home, Faris didn’t even dare to look at her window.. not today..not now..

He walked to his room, threw himself on bed and started listening to some voice notes that she sent.

YAAA 9ABAA7 ELZAAAIN WEL ZAINAAAH!!! ANA BIL JAM3A! *sigh* laish kint a9arkh? 7ada enjaz ine bil jam3a!! Zoorna w3zimne 3ala Starbucks! Yalla rise and shine! Hmm o bas ma 3indi salfa! Take care!!!

Faris moved to the next one..

EL LAILAA GHAAIR EL LIYAAALE WALAAA!! O TARN TARAN EL LIYALE WALA!! *laugh* nisait el ghniya!!! Bas elmohim fahamt qasdi!! Happy birthday yal shayiiib!!!

Faris remembered that voice note very well, it was Faris's first birthday without her, she was in London, but he woke up the next day and found a birthday cake and a gift from Zaina..she planned it before she left..

He clicked on the next voice note..

YA3NI SHNO MA TGDAR TRID! FAROOOOOS!! ANA AHAM MIN ELCLASS!! *giggle*ok el class aham! ELMOHIM dictore gale drop my class la2anch an F student! *laugh* JARA7 MASHA3RE!! adri ene F student bas mo lazm ygole ya3ni *giggle* elmohim! Mita  bashofik ya kamil wi9ofik? el yoom omahatna eb y6l3on ytaghadon!! Btye!! Ashoofik at 3!! Take care!!

Faris smiled at each laugh, all he had left is her voice notes, pictures and captures, nothing else..

Zaina won't call him each morning, she won't send him any voice note..

Zaina won't help him with his assignments, He won't hear "FARIS law trakiz tgdar tkhalis eb rubi3 sa3a bas malik khilg elderasa!!"

Faris won't call her whenever he misses her, Zaina won't call him and tell him about her day..

Faris won't tell Zaina "out" every time he leaves the house so she would look out the window and gave him a wide smile, or a funny face and wishes him a good day!

"Malich shghil ba7ad el mohim ana 3indch" "YAAAL THEQA!!" Faris will miss hearing that every time Zaina told him about an argument she had with anyone.

"Deerbalik bl 6reej!! Faris rabi6 7zamik? Don’t text and drive!! BAS basida!! Laish lal7en ga3id tkalmne? BYE FARIS" He'll miss Zaina telling him that every time he calls her while he's driving.

Faris closed his eyes while hearing Zaina's voice, he knew that his life will be different from now on.. He won't have Zaina in it and he has to figure out a way to accept it and live with it.

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  *Two years passed on Zaina's death, Faris still looks at Zaina's window every time he leaves the house, he still wishes that she would look out and wave at him with a wide smile on her face..