Monawa3aaaat 8

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2.يفتش عني في عيون الأصدقاء
فلا يجد سوى دمعه

3.Don’t pretend it's okay!! Please dont...

4. I know that you guys are expecting a new post! But with the lack of inspiration and our family problems mo gadra aktib!! Mako shay everytime I start writing I cant continue! Sam7ooni :/

5.مُؤلمَهْ كَثيراً تلكَ الأوجَاعْ ، التِيْ تأتينَا مِنْ بَعيدْ
وَ تحيطنَا مِنْ حيثُ لا نعلَمْ ،
وَ لا تملُكُ إلاَّ أن تُسقِطُنَا وجعاً دونَ
أن نَملُكُ أدنَىْ قُدرّه على مُقاوَمَة السُقُوطْ

عندما نحب

عندما نحب نفرح بلا سبب .. و نبكي بلا سبب و نحزن بلا سبب
عندما نحب نفكر كثيراّ ... و نتمنى كثيراّ ... و نخاف كثيراّ
عندما نحب نسترجع صورهم و نسترجع أصواتهم و نسترجع مواقفهم معنا
وعندما نحب نكتب الرسائل باهتمام و نتفنن في ترتيب الحروف ...عندما نحب يصبح للكلمة ثقلها و للحظة وزنها و للفرحة طعمها
عندما نحب نرسم الخطط و نفتعل الصدف و نشكر الظروف

ومضة*
اليوم التقيت بك صدفة
صدفة متوقعه ام غير متوقعة؟! لا يهم! المهم انها صدفه
كانت صدفة سعيدة في وقت غير سعيد
كن بخير يا صديقي

Giving up? {33}

Quwa;*

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2. umm madri shlon agolkoum bas my family is going through a rough time, mako inspiration and I'm really not feeling ok, fa bare with me please! Yimkin a6awil 3alaikoum bil posts, I dont even like this post bas I'll post it!! :/

Enjoy it;*

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Bibi buried her head into his chest and cried…

"Shuush" Bandar kept repeating into her ears.

Bandar didn’t know what it felt like to have lost someone, he realized that he wouldn’t really understand what she's going through… so he just held her in his arms waiting for her to calm down.

Bibi was slowly calming down, her breathing was so soft he could hardly hear it, he even held his own just to make sure that the rise and fall of her chest wasn't just an illusion, that she was really there in his arms, that she really needed him and he was there for her.

Bibi wiped her tears away and rested her head on Bandar's shoulder for a while..

Bibi

Hmm

Shlonch?

She sniffed and lifted her face to face him.

He looked at her closely, her eyes were tired, her nose was red, he brushed his hand on her cheek, She gave him a weak smile.

Bibi: Bandar?

Bandar: na3am?

Bandar's ringing tone interrupted them.

Bandar: umm hatha Zaid

Bibi nodded, Bandar picked it up and she slowly let go of his hand and walked to her purse

Bandar: Alo hala Zaid…la bil Sura.. la t7aton kahi ma3ay.. al7en radha qurtuba.. ok.. ma3a el salama

Bandar turned around and found Bibi standing, she was looking at the house, it was as if she's giving it one of those goodbye looks, she closed her eyes took a deep breath, turned around and walked towards Bandar.

He smiled and held her hand and they walked to his car.

Bibi: sayarti

Bandar shook his head: ana baridich O bachr 6awrshaw el sayi8 ya5ith.ha

And for the first time Bibi just nodded, she didn’t argue and she wasn’t stubborn as always, maybe because she was tired? and maybe because she felt safe with him and she didn’t want him to leave

They got into the car and Bandar drove off… Bibi held Bandar's hand with both her hands and rested her head on the window.

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They reached the house, Bibi looked out the window and found her grandfather and Zaid sitting on a bench in the garden.

He saw Zaid and her grandfather walking towards them, Bandar tried to pull his hand away but she held it tighter.

He sighed and pulled his hand away with a bigger force, Bibi looked at him with tears in her eyes it was just like she was asking him why?

Bandar: Bibi… ana lazm aro7 *sigh* ahalich y7atoonich

Bibi felt the door open from behind her.

"Baboona 7abebte!"

Bibi kept her eyes on Bandar, she wiped her tears away then turned to face her grandfather.

Bibi got out of the car & her grandfather hugged her.

Grandfather: smila 3alaich 7abebte! gimna n7ateech!

Zaid walked towards Bandar and shook hands with him.

Zaid: mashkor

Bandar: el 3afo ma sawait shay

Bibi's grandfather smiled at Bandar and helped Bibi enter the house, she looked at him one more time and gave him a weak smile, Bandar smiled back.

Zaid: awal mara y9er ma3aha chithi

Bandar looked at Zaid.

Zaid: mn 3ugb ma tiwafa 3ami O murta hadat el bait O yat t3eesh 3ind yadi O ma 6abat el Sura

Bandar sighed: allah y3enha

Zaid: agol Bandar

Bandar: na3am?

Zaid: Babon 3zimtik 3ala el yam3a ele msaweeha yadi 7ag staff el sharika?

Bandar nodded.

Zaid: O enshallah btye?

Bandar mu china fashla agola la?!

Bandar: ee enshallah

Zaid: zain ya m3awid bro7i ma awa6in wala a7ad bil sharika!

Bandar smiled: ele ygol ana awa6inhoum!

"Sh7aga wagfen bara?! Bandar 7abebe 7ayak!!" Said Bibi's grandfather

Bandar: tislam bo 3abdallah bas lazm amshi!

"3ala ra7tik yuba, mashkor O ma ga9art"

Bandar smiled: el 3afo ma sawaina ila el wajib

Bandar: yala 3ayal Zayood nshoofik enshallah

Zaid: 3ala 5air 7ayak allah

Giving up? {32}

Quwa;**

Sha5barkoum?!!

1. ma 3indi shay agoola ;p

2. This post goes to Nawarii;**

Enjoy it;*
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The once green garden is now brown, Bibi closed her eye and saw her mother sitting on the garden's chairs, she saw her father running after her, she heard her giggles and her father's laughs, she saw her mother's smile, she saw her pink bike but when she opened her eyes non of what she saw was really there…

Tears fell from her dark brown eyes, she walked towards the door tried to open it, it was locked she tried and tried but couldn’t open it...

Bibi put her head on the door and cried "mama ana Bibi ba6looli el bab"
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Bandar called Bibi but she didn’t answer shfeeha ma trid

uff waina, Bandar was calling Bibi nonstop while looking for his father, but she never replied
When he finally found his father.

Bandar walked towards him and whispered "Yuba ana mashi"
"bili ma y7afith" his father whispered back

He sighed and left
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Bibi sat on the floor and rested her head on the door, she heard her mobile ring but she had no more energy to walk to her purse.

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Bandar drove off to meet Majid

While calling Bibi, He sent her a message

Bibi riday 3alay

Please riday

He reached the hotel and walked to the lobby and found Majid sitting

Haa ya Bandar!

Bandar: asfeeen istath

Majid: wainkoum ya Bandar?

Bandar: ista2thant mn Bibi at2a5ar 3al ijtima3

Majid: 6ayib Bibi wain?

Bandar sighed: madri… madri gimt a7ateeha adig 3alaiha ma trid!

Majid: ya3ni wain bitkoun ya Bandar ihda!

Bandar: uff shlon ahda?! Ma trid 3alay! Dagait 3alaiha fog el 3ashir marat! Ma trid!

Majid: 6ayib ma t3arif a7ad mn ahalha?!

Bandar nodded: imbala

He quickly called Zaid.

Zaid: alo?

Bandar: quwa Zaid

Zaid: allah ygawik hala Bandar

Bandar: Zayood tadri wain Bibi?!

Bandar didn’t want to freak him out and tell him that she's not picking up her phone

Zaid: la wala madri laish?

Bandar: la2ana 3indina ijtima3 ma3a Majid O ta25irat 3alaina

Zaid: aha, ana al7en adig 3ala yaditi as2alha

Bandar: ok yalla na6rik

Bandar sat and waited for Zaid to call him back

Bandar: istath Majid roo7 '3urfitik irta7 ma atwa8a3 bekoun ako meeting el youm, sami7na

Majid: mub mishkila, 6amini 3ala Bibi

Bandar: enshallah

Majid walked to the elevator & Bandar walked to his car, his mobile rang…he closed his eyes and hoped that it would be bibi

Zaid calling

Bandar: alo ha Zaid

Zaid: omi '3aneema tgool inha gabil la ti6la3 galatlha ina 3indha meeting

Bandar: Zaid, Bibi ma yat el meeting O mo ga3id trid 3alay

Zaid: huh! Wain ra7at hathi? i9bir 5al ajarib adig 3alaiha

Bandar: 3ayazt wana adig ma trid 3alay

Zaid: inzain 5al ajarib sh5asraneen!

Bandar: ok yalla na6rik!

Zaid called bibi but she didn’t answer, he sent Bandar a message.

Ma radat 3alay, bashof etha kanat bil bait 3ind murti

Bandar took a deep breath and called Bibi ya rab trid.

6OO6

6oo6

6ooo6

Please riday please

6oo6

Alo?

Bandar's heart sunk when he heard her voice, He heard her sniffing and he knew that she was crying.

Bandar: Bibi wainich?

Bibi sniffed: bil sura

Bandar quickly changed his direction to Sura

Bibi: Bandar *sniff*

Bandar: shush al7en yayich al7en

Bibi: *gasp* Bandar

Bandar: shush ihday al7en akon 3indich

Bibi: Bandar la t9ika

Bandar: mani 9aka

Bandar stayed with bibi, he heard her cry she sniffed every now and then, she gave him the address.. he reached the house, it was dark he saw his car and rushed inside.

He saw her sitting on the floor and resting her head on the wall.

Bandar

Her voice and body was shaking

Bibi

Bibi: Bandar hatha baitna.. hatha baitna ana O omi O oboy *sniff*

Bandar: Bibi-

Bibi: ma dashait el sura mn awal ma *gasp* mataw

Bandar walked closer and saw her face clearly her eyes were red and puffy, he knew that she was crying for a long time, he cupped her face

Bandar: shush

Bibi: Bandar *sniff* Bandar

He wiped her tears away: shush ihday

Bibi put her head on his chest and whispered: ta3abt

Bandar felt his heart breaking, he couldn’t bare seeing her tears! He never saw her this weak, she was always the funny full of life Bibi, but know she was weak and she needed him...

He slowly wrapped his arms around her: shush

Monawa3aaaat 7

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2.القليل منك ... وَ الكثير مني وَ سأكون

3.يا انت احبك حد التعب.... حد التعب

4.الوحدة تختارنا.. و العزلة نختارها

5.الأحاديث معكِ عقيمة
دائما تنتهي حيث تردين

Giving up? {31}

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keefkon?

1. Thank u so much on ur comments!! Wayed new readers commented which made me really happy! SHUKRAN <3

2. hmm ma 3indi shay agoola Oh yes, 6awfaw badliyati please ;p!

Enjoy it;**

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Bibi picked up her purse and headed downstairs.

Mama ana mashyaaaa!

Waain?

Meeting!!

7afthich alllaaah!

Bibi walked out of the house and got into the car while her mobile was ringing

Uff zain !!

She picked it up

Bibi: Ahlain 3aloya!

3alya: hala Baboon! Shlounch sha5barich?

Bibi: b5air el 7imdallah! Intay sha5barich?

3alya: tamam el 7imdallah, agool Babona

Bibi: amray

3alya: ma yamir 3alaich 3ado, sawait cup cakes O-

Bibi: allllllllah 3alooya walaht 3ala el cupcakes ele tsawenhoum!!

3alya: 3ayal ta3alay i5thay nig9itich!!

Bibi: waay ba3ad 3umri, ayech al7en?

3alya: tathkren baitna?

Bibi: bil Sura 3adil?

3alya: ee bil sura, yalla na6ritich

Bibi: 3alooy tara ma agdar anzil 3indi meeting!

3alya: ok ok el mohim tyen!!

Bibi: hehehe ok
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Bandar wore his dishdasha and '3itra,He grabbed his mobile and wallet and headed downstairs

BAAANDAR!!

Bandar: na3am?! Kani nazil

Father: yalla 5ali9ni

Bandar found his father ready

Father: yalla

Bandar walked after his father

Father: wain mifta7 sayartik?

Bandar: fog

Father: enshallah nawi tro7 ma3ay?

Bandar: ee?

Father: Yalla ro7 yeb mifta7 sayartik, mint rakib ma3ay! yalla farij

Bandar sighed: enshallah yuba
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Bibi felt her heart sink went she entered Sura

It’s the place where she grew up in, she left the area after her parents death, she refused to sale the house… she thought that maybe someday she'll get over it and go back home

She reached 3alya's house & called her

Bibi: 3aloya ana bara yalla!

3alya: ok yalla kani yaya

Bibi waited for 5 minutes and then 3alya appeared

BABOOOOOON!

Bibi got out of the car and hugged her: 3alooya!

3alya: sha5barich 7adi walhana 3alaich!!

Bibi: el 7imdallah b5air intay shil dinya fech?

3alya: el 7imdallah b5air! Tifa'6ilay hathi nig9itich

Bibi: mashkora ma ga9artay

Bibi took the small basket and put it in the back seat when she turned around she found a guy standing beside 3alya

3alya: Baboon hatha o5oy a7mad, a7mad hathi Bibi el flani

A7mad smiled and shook hands with bibi

Bibi: fur9a sa3eda

A7mad: wana as3ad

He smiled, Bibi didn’t feel computable

Bibi: umm ok 3ayal yalla 3aloya ana bamshi

3alya: mintay dasha?

Bibi: la wala ma agdar 3indi meeting!

3alya: ok, 5anshoofich mo tig63een!!

Bibi smiled: enshallah

Bibi got into the car and drove off

She looked around the block everything was still the same nothing really changed, well she changed, her life changed after her parent's death, she looked at each house till her eyes fell on her house

Bibi parked her car and with heavy slow steps she walked to the gate pushed it and walked inside

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Bandar was standing alone waiting his father to finish socializing so he could leave!

Bandar el flani?

Bandar turned around and found Jasim standing

Bandar: na3am?

Jasim: sha5barik?

Bandar: b5air, int shlonk?

Jasim: tamam

They had a moment of silence then Jasim asked

Jasim: ha lal7en tisht'3il ma3a Bibi?

Bandar nodded: umm mabrok sima3t inik 5a6abt

Jasim: ee ya m3awad bagazirha 3alaiha O ba3dain aridha 3ind ahalha

Bandar was shocked: tgazirha 3alaiha nafs ma gazart.ha 3ala Bibi?

Jasim's eyes widened: ana ma gazart.ha 3alaiha ihya '3abiya fhamat kil shay '3ala6!

Bandar was about to punch him when his mobile rang, he took a look

Majid el flani calling

sh3inda dag?

Bandar gave Jasim a stare and got out of the ballroom to talk to Majid

Bandar: alo?

Majid: wainkoum ya Bandar!

Bandar: ha? Bibi mo 3indik?

Majid: la yabooy ma yat!

Bandar: enshallah ana al7en akon 3indik!

Bandar called Bibi

Once

Twice

Trice

but she didn’t answer her phone

Bandar got worried about her, he felt his heart beat faster, aked 9ar feha shay, 3umrha ma sawat.ha! 3umrha ma t2a5irat 3ala meeting! 3umrha ma 7garat it9ialati, aked 9ar feha shay!

Giving up? {30}

Quwa;*

Shlonkoum?

1. I dont see alot of comments :/ tara ana ib Dubai and im posting, shiftaw el tath7iya? :( O intaw mo ga3den t3l8on 3ala my posts :/

2. ANON N WAINICH? *cries*

3. Mabrook to all of u ili ta5arijaw ;**

4. 6awfaw badliyat O grammar mistakes I didnt check :p

Enjoy the post;*

This post is dedicated to HRM, Morning Dew,Glow, tima and BG ;)
sam7ooni my old readers bas the dedication is to them la2nhoum new readers ;p

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Bibi replied to Munera's message

3azema?

Ee ee!! Yalla 3izmeeeh! Youm el 5ames bait yadi!

Bandar: tifathilay

Bandar handed bibi the tissue

Bibi: ALLAH TISHBAHNE! Mashallah 3alaik 9ij fanan

Bandar smiled risamt.ha 3ala kleenex O chithi istanisat law tadri 3an el law7at ele bil bait shbitsawi?

Bibi: umm Bandar

Bandar: hmm?

Bibi: solifli 3aanik!!

He smiled: laish?

Bibi: bas

Bandar: shtabene agoolich 3ani? mako farg baini O bainch

Bibi raised an eyebrow: shlon ya3ni?

Bandar: ana agoolich shlon, intay ri7tay tadrsen ib America 3ashan tin7ashain mn fikrat ina omch O oboch mataw

Bibi sighed.

Bandar: wana ri7t 3ashan an7ash mn fikrat ina oboy lal7en ysafil fene wana rayal shkubri

Bibi nodded.

Bandar: ga3da tisht'3lain ib sharkat yadich 3ashan tinsain 7ilmich ili ohwa inch tift7en majala

Bibi: 9a7

Bandar: wana ga3id anti8il mn sharika lay sharika 3ashan an7ash mn fikrat ina oboy 3inda akbar sharika bil Kuwait O mo rathy ywa'6ifni feha, ga3id arsim law7at adri etha bi3t.ha btyebli mabali'3 zaina bas …. bas la2ana law7ati-

Bibi: shfehoum?

Bandar: law7ati titkalam 3an 8i9iti O mani misti3id ina el nass tshofha

Bibi: aha

Bandar smiled: bil nehaya intay nafsi bil thab6! Ma ti5talfain 3ani ib shay *wink*

She giggled: 9a7

Bandar looked at his watch: el wagt ta2a5ir

Bibi: ee

Bandar and Bibi stood up & walked to their cars

Bibi: umm ana sayarti hal 9ob

Bibi pointed to the right

Bandar: ana sayarti hal 9ob

Bandar pointed to the left, Bibi giggled

Bandar smiled: ti9b7en 3ala 5air

Bibi: winta mn ahla

Bandar walked to his car

Bibi: umm Bandar?

Bandar turned around: na3am?

Bibi: yadi msawi yam3a 7ag staff el sharika youm el 5ames-

Bandar: uhh ma atwa8a3 agdar aye

Bibi: laish?

Bandar: ma arta7 ma3a za7mat el nass

Bibi: Bandar

Bibi went closer: lay mita? tara mako '3urb, kil el staff t3rfa O ana bakon mawjoda

Bandar: adri, bas mo jawi … ma ra7 arta7

Bibi: *sigh* ok 3ala ra7tik

Bandar: ti9b7en 3ala 5air

Bibi : winta mn ahla
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-The next day-

SHLON MA RI'6A!

Bibi: ma ritha

Bibi got out of the bathroom & started looking in her closet for something to wear

Munera: uff laish!

Bibi raised an eyebrow: intay shfech wayed mi7tara? O a9lan shako nsawi 3azema? Shil munasaba! O laish mo yadi ili gali laish intay ili giltele? O laish mo ana in charge laish intay mas2oolat tarteebat el 3azeema?! Haaa? wintay shako bil staff? Laish taben tyam3ena? Manoooora! Shil salfa? Fikrat mno hathi?

Munera: OOOOOOOHHH! SHIL SALFA TA78EEEE8?
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BANDAAAAAAR! BANDRO O YAHAD!

Bandar: na3am yuba! Yaayik yaayik!

Bandar rushed downstairs: amir yuba

Father: ta3al ya maal el yahad ta3aal

Bandar sighed and walked closer to his father

Father: el laila 3irs wild 3amik, bitye ma3ay

Bandar: enshallah

Father: iksha5 mo tfashilni

Bandar: enshallah

Father: mo inta 6ool 3umrik mfashilni

Bandar sighed.

Father: kil ele ib 3umrik tizawijaw O sa3idaw ahalhoum bil 7alal, ila inta yal fashil! Mo nafi3 ib shay! A9lan mno el 7mara ele ib tir'6a ta5thik!

Bandar sighed and walked up stairs.

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Bandar entered his room, grabbed his mobile and called Bibi

He just did it, he needed to hear her voice.

6ooo6

6ooo6

Bandar: alo?

Bibi: shush bas siktay shway! Alooo hala Bandar

Bandar: hala feech

Bibi: shlonik? Sha5barik?

Bandar: b5air el 7imdallah, intay shlounch?

Bibi: el 7imdallah!

Bandar sighed.

Bibi felt the sadness in his voice: Bandar fek shay?

Bandar ee fene! Fene hmoom el dinya!

Bandar: la mafene shay bas ba'3ait agoolich ina 3indi 3irs el laila ya3ni i7timal at2a5ar 3ala el ijtma3, mani m6awil bas basalim O bamirkoum

Bibi: ok mako mishkila zain sawait inik bala'3tni

Bandar: ok 3ayal-

Bibi: Bandar

Bandar: amray

Bibi: ma yamir 3alaik 3ado, aked mafek shay?

Bandar sighed: ee aked

Bibi: 9ootik kilish mo 3ajibni!

Bandar: uhh

Bibi: obok?

Bandar: *sigh* sa3at mn kithir ma kalamah yjra7ni abda a9adga! Abda a9adig ina ma mini fayda! Abda a9adig ine m5aday O ma anfa3 ib shay!

Bibi: la Bandar! Inta insan wayed 6ayib O galbik abyath! Sha6ir ib shi'3lik O 5adoom! Malik sh'3il ib ay shay obok ygoola!

Bandar felt weak, he didn’t want to share his feelings with her, he didn’t want her to know what's bothering him, he didn’t want her to feel his weakness and feel sorry for him! He just needed her beside him to show him that he can have a normal relationship with someone , to show him that he can be another person with her, he needed her because he was the real Bandar with her! The real Bandar…

Bandar sighed.

Bibi: Bandar law inta m5aday O ma tifham chan ma 6libik Majid el flani bil isim 3ashan tishti'3il ma3ah! A9lan law 9ij ma minik fayda chan ma 5alaitik 3indi bil sharika ni9 youm *giggle*

Bandar giggled, she put her magic on him once again! She made him smile while he felt like the whole world is crashing over his head! She was there for him even when she didn’t notice or mean it! She was there on his side to make him move on, To help him be strong.

Bibi: yalla 3ayal ma a3a6lik 3ala kash5itik 7ag el 3irs wil tizihib!

Bandar giggled: ay tizihib? Kilha 10 digayig 3ind el 7ala8 O arid el bait albis dishdashty O '3itriti O akon jahiz 100% ib ni9 sa3a!

Bibi: waaaay mnkoum yal riyayeel! I7na wa3alaya nig3ad 6oooool el youm bil 9alon! Nrid el bait nbadil O nroo7 el 3irs O laaaa! A5ir shay ma ya3jibkoum shakilna!!

Bandar laughed.

Bibi: ee ith7ak! Ith7ak ya bo ni9 sa3a tizihib!

Bandar: 5ala9 yuba wala tiz3leen! Baroo7 al7en el 7ala8 O ag3ad 3inda laaaaain iye wagt el 3irs arid el bait albis dishdashty O amshi 5osh?

Bibi giggled: 5oooooosh!

Bandar giggled

"Baboooooooooon" Bandar heard someone call Bibi

Bibi: uff el muz3ija manor tnadene!

Bandar: hehe allah y3enich! Yalla 3ayal ma3a el salama

Bibi: ma3a el salama!