Scarred -14-

Hi!!


*Some of you are asking if the end is getting close and when will the story finish! I really have no idea, I'll just write what I feel like writing and we'll wait  and see!


This post goes to my favourite graduate, SAA!! Mabrouuk!! I'm so proud of you! And I love you more than you could even imagine;***


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AlZainah walked to the stairs with slow steps, she was going through all scenarios that might happen once she tells her parents her decision. 



"Hala zayona baba!! sh9ayir?"



AlZainah gave her father a quick smile and sat down in front of him and her mother.



AlZainah: 9arli cham youm afakir bil mawthou3, o a7is ine qarart!



Mother: ay mawtho3 enshallah?



AlZainah: mawtho3 Hamad wala Faisal



Mother: qa9dich mawthou3 el mareeth wala wild el khadma?



Father: istaghfir alllah!! khaleeha tkamil!



AlZainah took a deep breath: awal ma akhalis finals barou7 Houston 7ag Faisal



Mother: wil 9aifi? wil takharouj?!



AlZainah: at2akhar course mu mishkila!



Mother: fa shqarartay bil thab6? titzawjaain wa7id feh cancer? 



AlZainah sighed: yuma-



Mother: o la shbtgoleen? Hala Faisal shakhbarik? yalla khal nitzawaj?



AlZainah: yuma!!! Faisal kan dayman ynaqiz 3alay o mkalim oboy bil mawtho3!!



Mother: gilteeha! KAAAAN!! Ya3ni min zmaan!! Ya3ni khalas el walad khatha ejabta minch!  laish trideen tgi6een 3umrich 3alaih?



AlZainah looked at her father, she wanted him to say something, to be on her side.



Father: baba zayona radaitay fita7tay elmawtho3 wiya Faisal 3gub ma dara ina mareth?



AlZainah: gali an6ira!! shma3nata?



Mother: ma3nata tinthabrain o tan6reena yrid! Mo tsheleen gashich o tsafreen!



AlZainah looked away, she knew that talking about this with her mother would be hell.



Father: om zaid, mumkin tkhaleena ana o zayona bro7na?



Mother: la mo momkin!!!! AlZainah binti el wa7eeda!! gathaina 3umrina kila ndareeeha winkhaf 3alaiha o na36eeha ele tabe!! Mo nagi9ha shay!! mara7 artha inha titzawaj mareeth!! 



Father: wala ana ra7 artha, ro7ay darich o ihdaay 3ala ma atfaham ma3aha



Mother: shofay zayon! la ra7 titzawjain mareeth wala ra7 titzawjain wild el khadama!! lu t3anseeen  o tg3deen 3indi bil bait! fahma?



AlZainah just stared at her mother while she walked to her room.



Father: zayon



AlZainah: yuba!! please ifhamne! Faisal 6oul hal sneen y7ibne! o kil ele kan ysaweh wegola la2ana y7ibne!! ana ele 6oul hal sneeen adgira o ma asawe nafsi mo fahma!!!



Father: bas hatha mo ma3nata inch titzawjaina!



AlZainah: imbala!!! etha btkoun hathe akhir ayama bakoun 7oula!! wetha la wetha allah katibla y3eesh 3adi a3eesh 3umri kila wiya!! yuba faisal wayed y7teene wayed y3amlne zain o-



Father: adre ya yuba adre




AlZainah tried so hard not to cry: will 7al?




Father: rou7ay Houston



AlZainah: okay?




Father: o trideen gabil rmthan 




AlZainah: o bas?




Father: ee bas! bidon zawaj 



AlZainah sighed. 




Father: zayon baba may9er titzwjain wa7id la2ana kasir kha6rich




AlZainah's tears were rolling down her face: adre




Father: khalas 3ayal baba bas 3a6ene tareekh 3i6litich o ana ib nafsi a7jizlich o amir 3alaich hnak mita ma gidart



AlZainah nodded.



Father: be9er elwath3 jidam kil elnass chinch ray7a 7ag Sara twanseenha bidal la yteem thayig khilgha!



AlZainah nodded, stood up to walk to her room, her father gave her a warm hug: acre inch 7anouna baba.. o t7iseen bil thanb bsr3a.. bas may9er takhtheen qarar chithi




AlZainah hugged her father back and cried: mabeh ymot.. magdar!!



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-One month later-


"Hi"



Hamad turned around: Hala



AlZainah: msafra america ba3ad shway



Hamad nodded: ya bakhta



AlZainah smiled: ma qarart



Hamad: bt'hideen kilshay o tro7eenla bas ma qarartay?



AlZainah: baro7la at6aman 3alaih o arid



Hamad: triden wintay murta?



AlZainah shook her head: la



Hamad walked closer to AlZainah: 3ayal la trou7een!! tikfain! la tro7eeen!!! kalmeeh Skype kalmeeeh tango ayshay!! bas la tro7een!



AlZainah smiled, she loved the way Hamad was attached to her, the way he looked at her, she felt that he wanted her around him more than anything and finally he was not shy to show it.



AlZainah: mara7 a6awil Hamad.. shahar.. shahrain bil kitheer



Hamad: o shyathminle inch ma t7ibeena ib hal shahrain?



AlZainah: ma gidart a7iba 6oul hal sneen mara7 a7iba al7een! in6ir o -



Hamad: Zayon elshay el wa7eed ele ni6arta 6oul hal sneen ele fatat ohwa shoftich!! agdar atim an6irich 6oul 3umri bas abe nateeja 7ag hal na6ra!! mabe an6ir o akhir shay-



Hamad looked down.



AlZainah: khalas 3ayal in6rne



Hamad: Zayon



AlZainah smiled.



Hamad: etha ma tizawajtch mara7 atzawaj ghairich



AlZainah felt butterflies in her belly.



Hamad: 7i6ay hal shay ib balich, 7i6ay ib balich ine min 3araftich wana a7ibich o akhaf 3alaich, 7i6ay ib balich ina kil youm agoum el 9ib7 o atmana inch tmrene hne! ine ashofch lu bsr3a, ine asma3 9outch! 



AlZainah smiled.



Hamad: Zayon 9ij ine kint b3eed 6oul hal sneen bas ib raditi hathe 3araft wayed ashya2 3anch! o la7atht wayed ashya2!! 




Hamad smiled:  la7atht inch lama tist7een t6al3een ta7at o t3adleen 7awajbich



AlZainah giggled, that was a weird habit of her and he noticed it.



Hamad: o t3a9been 3ala kilshay o kilman lama tkoneen yo3ana... o madre laish dayman tashkeen ina rgubtich t3awrch o ma 3indch ghamaza o lazm tsaween 7araka ghareeba ib wayhich 3ashan t6la3!




AlZainah giggled: ee!!!



Hamad: o inch sha6ra o om glaaib bas mu rathya ti3tarfaain! 



AlZainah laughed.



Hamad: o inch ma t3arfen ti6bkheen wala tsougeen gare



AlZainah laughed: Hamad!!! sh'hal ma3lomaat!!



Hamad: 9a7 wala mo 9a7?



AlZainah smiled: 9a7



Hamad: bas 3ayal mo la2ane 9arli fatra mo shayfich ma3nat'ha ine ma3arfich!!



AlZainah sighed.



Hamad: ra7 an6irich... bas please zayoon.. la trideen elkuwait wintay murta



AlZainah's heart sunk.



Hamad: wetha raditay wintay murta.. la tyene.. la tkalmene! 3eeshay 7ayatich o ana aked ib yousalne el khabar, bas mabe yousalne minch!!



AlZainah took a deep breath and nodded: ma3a elsalama



Hamad: bilsalama



She left Hamad standing with a disappointed face, he wanted her to stay, to be with him, he saw her walk away from him, walk to be with another man, without knowing if she'll ever come back to him.


She left him.. she left him scarred.

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AlZainah gave both parents a hug and walked to the gate, she was leaving home to be there for Faisal, what if she couldn't full fill her promise to Hamad and came back home as Faisal's wife, what would her mother's reaction be? What will Hamad feel?


She wanted to leave everything and everyone and just be alone, she wanted her personal space, a space that everyone around her knew that she needed sometimes. 



Hamad was the only person on her mind, his smell hit her every time she closed her eyes and tried to remember the way he smelled, his smile, the way his hair is always messy 


AlZainah dragged her heavy heart and bag all the way to the plane, sat on her chair, closed her eyes and prayed that Allah would set her mind to whats best for her.