Scarred -15-

Hi!!


*I hope that all of you are enjoying your summer vacations and good luck for those of you who are taking summer courses!! 


*I wrote this post while "Ed sheeran- all of the stars" was on repeat, Its such a beautiful and depressing song and I felt like it affected the way the post went.


Enjoy it!!!


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AlZainah felt her heart beat in the tips of her fingers, she tried signing her stress off but nothing worked. She was so nervous. 



The first person she saw was Sara, she was standing facing a window.



"Hi"



Sara quickly turned around, tears were rolling down her cheeks once she saw AlZainah.



"7ada ta3baan zayon!! 7ada ta3baan!"




AlZainah's heart sunk, she had no idea what to say, what would make Sara feel better, They sat on the chairs in the waiting room.




Sara: shlon latofa o hesso? walhana 3alaikom




AlZainah smiled: wi7na ba3ad walhaneeen 



Sara smiled: zayon



AlZainah: hmm?




Sara: shyaybich?




AlZainah sighed: madre!! bas 7asait ine lazm aye!!



Sara sighed: tyela ayam ykon feha zain, o ysolif o yth7ak, wityeela ayam wayed yta2alam feeha o tyeela ayam kila nayim feha



AlZainah felt tears forming in her eyes.



"Zayona?"



AlZainah: hala khalti!!!




Mother: hala 7abeebtee!! el7imdallah 3al salama!! 




AlZainah smiled: alllah ysalmch!




Mother: ba3ad galbi zayona! mashkoora 3ala yayitch, saronna malat min elga3da bro7ha!!




AlZainah smiled: ma baina khalti i7na khawat!!




Mother: ta3alaw dakhil, 3amch dakhil o Faisal ga3id!



AlZainah felt her legs numb, she wasn't ready to see Faisal but she couldn't say no to his mother.




She walked behind his mother with slow steps, the door opened and she saw him. She saw Faisal, their eyes meet, AlZainah felt her heart beat faster, she felt her blood rushing through her body.



Father: halaaaa zayona!!!




AlZainah smiled: hala 3ami! shakhbarik?




Father: bkhaair el7imdalllah!




Mother: Bo Faisal shrayik nrou7 nyeeblina gahwa?




Faisal's parents left AlZainah alone with him.




"Hi"



AlZainah smiled: Hala



Faisal was nothing like himself, he was extremely thin, She felt like his veins will almost pop out of his arms, he had blue circles under his eyes, he wasn't Faisal that she always knew.



AlZainah: shlonik?



Faisal: el7imdallah, its one of the good days



AlZainah: good days?



Faisal nodded: tyene ayam a7is ine 9irt a7san o atfa2aaal o agol yallla bas shway o a6eeb o arid el kuwait!



AlZainah smiled.



Faisal: wityene ayam agol 7ag nafsi bas khalas mako fayda, lu arid el kuwait agathe ele bage min 3umri ma3a rab3i o ahale abrak




AlZainah: Faisal!!




Faisal tried to smile: ma 3alaina mini, intay shlonch?




AlZainah: bkhaair!!




Faisal: yeetay ma3a 3ami?



AlZainah: la brou7i 




Faisal: wil 9aifi?




AlZainah: mani makhtha




Faisal: zayon!!




AlZainah: Halaa?! la7gaa 3al takharuj! wil watheefa wil ga3da min 7 el 9ib7!!




Faisal: kasoolaa




AlZainah giggled: 7adi!!




Faisal: lay mita ga3da?




AlZainah: lay rmthan!




Faisal: giltlich tan6rene mo tyene!!




AlZainah giggled: ee ayeek o lay radait el kuwait an6irik!




Faisal smiled. 




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The day came to an end and AlZainah had to go back to her hotel.



Father: zayona yuba laish ma taskneen 3indina bil shiqa? tkoneen 7olna o ma3a Sarona!



AlZainah: la 3ami khalne bil hotel a7san! o 7adi mo b3eeda 3ankom tara! baina bas shari3!



Father: ele yray7ich 7abebte! 



AlZainah walked back to the hotel, she needed to walk, she needed to clear her head, seeing Faisal today made her heart heavy, he was so weak, she could barely hear him talk.


The thought of marrying him was ringing in her head again, but what about Hamad? How will she tell Faisal that she wants to be his wife? what if he says no?



AlZainah closed the door of her room, locked it and threw her self on bed, she covered her face with a pillow and cried until she fell asleep. 


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"el7imdalllah bkhaair!! ee wala 3ami ma ga9aar! masken y7atene akthar min Sara! la kani barou7 atrayag wiya Sara winrou7 el mistashfa.. salim 3ala omi.. enshallah..ma3a elsalama"



AlZainah and Sara ate their breakfast and were walking back to the hospital.



Sara: shlon Hamad?




AlZainah: Sara? sh'hal so2al?




Sara: zayon tadren inch ib 7isbat ikhti! bas etha nawya tg3deen shway o trideen 7ag Hamad min al7een agolch riday!




AlZainah: Sara shfeech?!!




Sara: Faisal wayed istanas ib shoftich, mabe yindgir, wath3a ma yisma7la ina yindgir!! kan bkhaair o 6abe3e gabil la tyeen! ya tkhaleen elwath3 a7san aw tamsheen!




AlZainah stayed silent all the way to the hospital, she knew that Sara was so stressed out and she needed someone to release that stress and anger on, but she also had a point.



The girls were walking to Faisal's room, when they saw his mother standing outside the room crying.



"Ya rabb ya raaab yaa raab"



Sara: yuma shfeech?!!



Mother: ta3baan



Sara sighed.



AlZainah: khalti ta3alay gi3day



AlZainah and Sara's mother sat down.



Mother: ta3awdna 3ala hal ayam.. awal shahar kanat 9a3ba 3alaina.. o lal7een 9a3ba 3alaina! bas 9irna a7san, gimna n3arif int9araf lama faj2a yt3ab wayed



AlZainah: el7imdallah 3ala kil 7aal



Faisal's mother smiled: el7imdalllah



AlZainah walked to Faisal's room, she opened the door slowly, she saw him bending over and he was vomiting.



She froze in her face, she had no idea what to do or say, Faisal looked at AlZainah and back to Sara.



"la tshofne chithi,, 6al3eeeha bara" 



In a blink of an eye the door was shut, AlZainah took a couple of steps to the back, she realised that the month that she'll spend around Faisal won't be an easy one, she'll have a lot of long days.


She needed to decide whither she wants to go through this or go back home and just wait for him.